gaming · inspiration · various life things

long time, no see…

Oh hello there.

First off, I have been seeing a career advisor since July. We have basically just been talking about jobs (which might be obvious) and also discussing and working on my master resume which has been a lot more work than expected. She told me it’s like doing a research project/paper on yourself, and honestly? She’s 100% right with that statement! We have one final meeting in a few weeks in December, and in the meantime, I’m finalizing the master resume and putting together a couple different portfolios that cater towards different work (research writing + more project oriented stuff I did). I do feel better about it than when I first started meeting with her, but due to the current circumstances, it still feels impossible to find a job I really love. The struggle has been so real, especially lately.

With that said, I finally am taking Korean lessons. I mentioned in a previous post that I wanted to start learning a new language. I was going to do all self study, however, I found a website called Amazing Talker, and found a great tutor on there who is very nice, laid back, patient, and easy to talk to, so we will be meeting over Zoom about 1-2 times a week so that it keeps me on track with studying and learning the language. I did also finally get the Learn Korean with BTS set today so I’ll also be using that and the textbook my tutor sent me in between our sessions. I’m also considering doing Duolingo as well for when I’m on breaks at work or whatever! While job searching, I found there is a high demand for bilingual journalists, so I’m learning for future career purposes and also because I have wanted to learn the language for years and felt this was a great time to start. 

As for my goals for last month, I failed them all. I started about 3 different horror games and never finished them because I lost interest. I wonder if I just have lost interest in the horror genre altogether since I wasn’t even really into Halloween this year either. I have only felt like playing Genshin Impact which I am still completely obsessed with, season 2 of Fall Guys, and I started playing Martian Gothic: Unification since I have wanted to experience it for myself ever since seeing a let’s play on YouTube a few years ago. So far, I’m pretty into it. I’m using save states instead of the actual save system because uhhhh, yeah. If you know the game at all, you will understand. The Playstation 5 comes out in a few days, and like I mentioned before, I am sad that I can’t play the new Demon’s Souls game, but at the same time, I do want to play the original again and it seems many of the games releasing will be on PS4 still with the free upgrade to PS5, so I feel like I’m not missing out on too much. I’m excited to start the new Spider-Man: Miles Morales game on Thursday! I’m going to pre-order it tonight and get the preload started so it’s all set to go Thursday evening when I get home! I’m still working out my backlog, and I feel like it has grown even bigger now with PS1 and PS2 games I never played but now can.

So now, what are my goals for the rest of this year?

  • Keep up with my Korean studies.
  • Work on a backlog spreadsheet.
  • Get my portfolios done.
  • Don’t feel bad if I don’t complete a goal.

With that said, I do want to write here more, and I plan to. I have a lot of ideas I want to do for posts. Since there is a new Genshin Impact update coming tomorrow, I think that might be my first new post. I may also write about Martian Gothic as well since it has intrigued me for years. From there, we’ll see 🙂

Thanks for reading, following, and sticking around if you’re still here!

gaming · writing

The Screenshot that Inspired me.

Admittedly, for a long time, I struggled with finding the motivation to write. My first major problem was that I didn’t know where to write. These days, I’m more into technology so I wanted to write a blog online somewhere instead of handwriting everything. I actually had an old wordpress a few years ago, which is now long deleted, where I would write solely about video games. Then I realized I also wanted to write about music and maybe post some of my photography. But that wouldn’t vibe well with my video game stuff. So, I ended up just shutting the blog down and not doing anything. 

I also tried Livejournal for years. I would always go on there and be, “oh hey, I’m going to write here everyday about stuff” and it would work for a couple of days, then I would lose my motivation again and just never log back in for another year (literally), just to do the same thing all over again whenever I eventually did go back. It made me wonder how I was able to sometimes update on Livejournal multiple times a day when it was hard to even update it once a day. How?!

Back in February, I decided to try my hand at opening an Instagram account for screenshots of the video games I played (virtual photography, which I will write about a little more soon), and just gaming in general. At first, it was very much centered around Resident Evil, but since then, has kind of turned into a more Final Fantasy 7 Remake based account. Though, I definitely do plan on posting more content on there than just Final Fantasy! It’s good in a way though, because going through the screenshots I took from FF7R really inspired me, and one in particular really got me thinking about how and where I wanted to write:

Aerith Gainsborough and Cloud Strife in Final Fantasy VII Remake. Captured by me.

I wish I had taken more photos of Aerith’s garden and her house in general. It’s such a peaceful area in the game and I really loved being there. I mean, who wouldn’t want to live there?! Next time I play, I will definitely be capturing more footage of this area. Anyway, an interesting point to make is that Aerith really became one of my favorite characters from the entirety of Final Fantasy in this remake. I always loved her, but felt like I identified more with Tifa. However, Aerith really struck me in this. I’d love to look at the original FF7, Advent Children, FF7R (and all other FF7 related games/media) to find more insight as to how this happened. Maybe over the years it’s because I prefer playing as characters who cast magic? Maybe I prefer playing the healer role? Maybe I feel more for Aerith because of her backstory now? After editing the photo for my Instagram, I thought of the title of Aerith’s Garden as a place to share my thoughts on various subjects, and felt that if I could even write at least 500 words a day on anything, it would help me get back into writing.

I’m glad that Aerith and her garden were able to give me inspiration to make this blog, as cheesy as it sounds. And thank you for reading my tiny ramble of the day.